Anxious Things

My notes app (lol), The Bear Season 2 Episode 6 "Fishes", when the sky turns dark right before it storms, feeling nostalgic about how time has moved too fast, noticing that time is moving fast, when the sleeves of my shirt feel too tight, Nothing New by Taylor Swift (feat Phoebe Bridgers), The Summer I Turned Pretty when Silver Springs by Fleetwood Mac plays, my mom calling me by my full name, when someone doesn't answer my text, creaking noises in the middle of the night, waking up from a nightmare but thinking you're still in a dream, worrying about the future, confrontation, unread emails, putting off necessary tasks, making doctor's appointments, not knowing a plan, hyper fixating on my flaws, traveling, meeting new people, interviews, existential dread about being a good person, Web MD, disappointing someone, making decisions, having to pick a restaurant, having to pick something and it means I can't have the other, the third cup of iced coffee, depersonalization, elevators, not making progress.